Hard to believe, 4 weeks ago this morning I was in theatre. I feel joyful and grateful especially to the surgeon, especially as she had to spend and extra two hours in theatre with me! I did spend the following day apologising to everyone I saw... accept the poor lady who was last on the list for theatre that day and had to have her operation cancelled because of me.. I still feel so dreadful for her :(
I started the day with a temperature and really wasn't expecting to go to theatre so that helped with the nerves a tiny bit until I realised I was due to be first down at 8.30am!!!! No time to ring hubby, I had a beautiful email with me from a very special guardian angel which I kept in my dressing gown pocket and by the time I was in the anesathetic room I had memorized the words and was recalling them over and over.. it helped... this special lady, reminded me of the wonderful day I spent on the beach when it was my birthday in June, to recall the sights, feel the sun and remember the sounds of the sea and the sea gulls... it certainly worked a treat! Thank YOU Heidi. xxx
I was expected out of theatre around 10am - 10.30am but the first thing I knew it was 12.05pm when I first opened my eyes.. I was taken onto the ward I remember asking my first question, did they manage keyhole? The nurse shock her head and sad, sadly, no.... everything I had read up and was prepared for I had to let go of... my next question, did they manage to save my right ovary? YES!!
And so, my long journey to recovery began, with 3 extra sets of stitches which made a kind of giant face with a big smiley with an 8" cut in my lower abdomin.. it made Tom smile.. right before I saw him grimace!
I have been blessed, I am a survivor, I am ALIVE! and doesn't it feel good.... Well, it did right before the spinal block and the morphine ran out....
I was lucky enough to meet two lovely new life long friends in hospital, we were all in with very similiar problems, the other two having their operations the following day to mine and joining me in the same wing, I had six frightful (because of the nerve pain) scary days in hospital which could have left me feeling isolated and very lonely. Instead, we lived it up, and put the world to rights in only the way three bed ridden ladies could!!!
I KNOW I COULDN'T HAVE COPED THE WAY I DID WITHOUT THEM!
Everything happens for a reason doesn't it, the universe listens, even when we don't understand and can't make sense of things... the greater good is taking care of us, I could have had my operation a month sooner if it wasn't for being anemic and then I would never have met these two special ladies... I am looking forward to our reunion just as soon as we are all well enough, it will be good to seem them dressed!! hehe..
I have received lots and lots of beautiful handmade cards which are also helping with my recovery, I admire them everyday and thank everyone from the bottom of my heart....xxxxxxxx
I still have a long wayy to go with my recovery, due to complications and lots of internal stitches needed to help me heal. (I don't do things by halves!! I even managed to surprise the surgeon with the mess she had to sort out, in her skillful hands, everything should heal back to normal) I am spending most of the time sleeping day and night, which isn't me!!! but I'm going with the flow and listening to my body... just need to remember to listen to my head too!!!!
I look forward to visiting everyone's blogs and wish to thank everyone so kind enough to leave me a comment on my blog. Sitting straight up at the computer desk is pretty hard at the moment and leaves me feeling exhausted and quite dizzy, I do feel for a couple of my crafty friends who I know have similar struggles day in and day out long term... xoxoxox
I feel so blessed to be surrounded by such caring special people and wish you all well.